Did that Actually Happen?

You know one of the dreams where you can see yourself sleeping? An: Out-Of-Body experience? I had one last night; as it was happening I was almost lucid. I thought: urgh, one of these. Ok. I'll run with this for a minute. Started getting a bit brave and explore my surroundings. I walked to the front room, went in the bathroom and washed my face. Got bored, went back to bed. Boring. Mundane. Dream. Had a few more drams about some people that are no longer in my life, how much I miss them, how much I love them, nostalgic times; blah, blah, blah. My alarm sounds as it always does at: 06:45. I partially wake. I'm getting to the age now where I have to pee in the middle of the night. At this time in the morning, I'm bursting. I go the bathroom and the sink tap is still running. Odd. I turn it off and think no more of it. I go to the kitchen and the window is wide open. Again, odd. I know I closed this. A little confused, I close the window. I head the front room, my phone and my headphones are the sofa, playing music. In deep thought, maybe this wasn't an out of body experience, there's a high chance I was sleep-walking. But how did I hear my alarm and turn it off? Again, nothing extraordinary or interesting about any of those things I experienced last night. I go back to bed.

Thoughts of suicide cross my mind again; I'm starting to get used to it's unwelcome residency. I let the thoughts be. I start to think about where my mind is, what am I doing to quell and minimise the disruption they are causing. My head aches because of all the frowning. I'm starting to talk to the people who have frustrated me or made me angry. Now, I'm not talking: in my head, constructing or practising what I'm going to say to these people when I next see them. I'm having full blown conversations and hear their responses. It's not until I realise, I'm actually whispering these words to the person standing in front of me.

I sit bolt upright. The voices go. Ok, Aaron. Your mental state is running away with you. You're really frustrated, angry and dealing with some triggering things. There's a high chance you were dreaming. This is normal, lay back down. I feel like I wasn't asleep, but I can't be certain. Again, I have some choice words for some people at work that have royally pissed me off. But this time I can see AND hear them. This isn't in my head, I don't think. I'm really confused now and little disorientated. Can I actually hear them? I'm talking to them, I can hear myself talking to them. This isn't an internal monologue. This isn't your thinking voice. I can hear myself as other's hear it. Like it has been recorded and played back to me. The cringy feeling of hearing your own voice. Now I'm confused, because what I thought was an esoteric dream, could actually be: sleep walking. Furthermore, what I thought was internal processing of my mental state, could they have been auditory and even, visual hallucinations?

Could this be a: psychotic episode?

I'm probably reading too much into this. Right?